At Eternity's Gate

I trapped my screams in a glass jar And hid it on a shelf To avoid ever reaching it by myself Once I walked down I destroyed the ladder Then, I found the way right to my bed And travelled it for a long time Everything came out all in one and Five seconds passed in awhile I am tired, I'd sleep but I have this dream I can't give up Every night, everytime: Some time ago, among the banks of the Rhone Again, I got lost Where were you? I didn't know until the stars in the sky Drew your sleeping look All night long, I silently gazed at you, having a lot to say But I did not speak a single word I fell asleep in the night shade of the cypresses and I woke up at dawn, in a wheatfield With my heartbeat synced to the falling rain Later I walked all day the path that leads to the mouth of the river Hoping to see you there, waiting for me Now what is left but the wheezing of a pained old man? An empty landscape at eternity's gate To every raindrop that touches my skin I associate a memory that never been An image I previously saw in my dreams If I dream at night I dream of you, in form of light Of that starry night When I died at sunrise