My 85th Rodeo

I see the circles under your eyes and it's been years I've got questions and you've gone grey since you've moved here But our seats at the bar feel the same We can run but we're back here anyway Smile at the worst of things. Laugh when I hate everything I can re-read every exchange, every display of misplaced energy What was I, high? I must've been drunk to think that we were as good as it looked When the best of days were the worst Of times that I can't get off of my mind In this life, some things go unheard I pretend not to notice cause this anxiety hurts I can still find you in crowds. You're impressed and I am floored right now But that doesn't really change much When the best of days were the worst Of times that I can't get off of my mind I've waited but we'll never begin. Kept me miserable and thin When the best of days were the worst of Times, I protect my heart from my own mind It's hard when add to the list of things I can't make up You think about me on New Years