Better Side of Me

I'm feeling empty, all alone This feelings condescending to my soul So sick of bitter endings And letting go Are there happy endings That I'm supposed to know There's a hurt inside I'm feelin And it needs to be released I'm holding onto the thoughts I know Tormenting me I've gotta break this cycle You live and you learn If I'm making all the same mistakes I'll crash and burn I gotta get outta the way I'm thinking There's a better side of me I'm torn between addictions And the truths that I believe Filled with toxic memories They've been burned into my mind Effecting all my choices made For the rest of my life Feels like my eyes are bleeding Can't believe the things I've seen Bad thoughts turn to accusations That end up make believe I gotta get outta the way I'm thinking There's a better side of me I'm torn between addictions And the truths that I believe Struggling while sleeping I toss and turn I hear outside it's raining It calms my nerves It calms my nerves It calms my nerves I know that I will always be deceived I'm drowning in a sea of my anxiety I can't get outta the way I'm thinking There's no better side of me There's nothing to believe in There's nothing There's nothing here for me