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Made myself a promise but I'm so good at this Feeding the fire that's gonna burn me Now winter's at my door All my clothes are on the floor I can't control my dreams or my nightmares I sit up on the barstool and I watch the sun go down I smoke enough to kill me and I drink enough to drown Hanging onto nothing until nothing feels like new And I've got no-one to blame I sure as hell can't go blaming you I'm sick of my own mind I drink the water, wish for wine Lust is almost always never love Even if she's everything Everything your dreams have been made of I must be full of it, still dreaming of your kiss I can still taste you in the morning That me is dead and gone I know all I did wrong Knew we were poison when I met you I sit up on the barstool and I watch the sun go down I smoke enough to kill me and I drink enough to drown Hanging onto nothing until nothing feels like new And I've got no-one to blame I sure as hell can't go blaming you I'm sick of my own mind I drink the water, wish for wine Lust is almost always never love Even if she's everything Everything your dreams have been made of I sit up on the barstool and I watch the sun go down I smoke enough to kill me and I drink enough to drown Hanging onto nothing until nothing feels like new And I've got no-one to blame I sure as hell can't go blaming you I'm sick of my own mind I drink the water, wish for wine Lust is almost always never love Even if she's everything Everything your dreams have been made of Made myself a promise But I'm so good at this