Happy When I Die

Why do I keep running

From the person I'm becoming?

I spent all my money

But I'll be happy when I die

It's game over

10 AM and I'm not sober

Trying to keep my composure

So I could be happy when I die

I'm trying to make me a mil'

But shit, I can't pay my bills

'Cause I be craving them pills

They say I'm crazy as hell

I need a place I can chill

Stay away in the hills

I'll catch a case if you will

'Cause I ain't taking no L's

Make sure your seatbelts are fastened

I ain't the cat you imagine

'Cause I'm sociopathic and a little old-fashioned

Like a young Charles Manson

And a recent Ted Danson

Try to cause a distraction

Charlie, wait, what happened?

See, what had happened was

I never really gave a fuck

Plus I was dangerous

When buzzed off a case of Bud

Money, I don't make enough

Won't hesitate to take your drugs

The real you's just fake as fuck

Before I die, I'll take the dub

Why do I keep running

From the person I'm becoming?

I spent all my money

But I'll be happy when I die

It's game over

10 AM and I'm not sober

Trying to keep my composure

So I could be happy when I die

Down the 101 with no one inside my ride

Wasting away, lost my baby and don't know why

But I've been faded like all my life

Sometimes, I question if the pain is ever worth my high

I talk to God, but he ain't ever answer

I really wish I had a reason to ask for some peace back

'Cause in my life, I don't relax

A heart attack, I feel my love is starting to relapse

Why do I keep running

From the person I'm becoming?

I spent all my money

But I'll be happy when I die

It's game over

10 AM and I'm not sober

Trying to keep my composure

So I could be happy when I die

But I'll be happy when I die