afteR egypt (february 21')

Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom Well, who am I to keep you down? It's only right that you should play the way you feel it But listen carefully to the sound of your loneliness Say I wanted freedom But what's really freedom? When I been caught lying and cheating and killing the feeling of love Nothing can heal it the wounds I've inflicted Ask god for forgiveness But that won't heal wounds that I cut in my victim Kristen my lover now that shit is history I Don't deserve her, honestly i don't deserve her She was an angel and he was a demon under cover Living in a moment Running from the lonely Head is on backwards I can see hindsight only Know that the timing ain't right But I gotta get on this flight You're the only one I could see as my wife What the hell I cannot believe I lost my sight for a, good woman For no reason, so selfish baby I can't believe it She was everything that I ever needed Ay I regret not respecting you as a woman I regret not appreciating what I had I regret hurting everyone of your feelings All I can think about my mind a mile a minute As Im speeding in a Kia down the 101 Not sure what you doing when you see me there From that cliff will you throw me or leave me there Either way I don't know I feel unprepared Haven't slept in two days just to make it here Hit the bank grab your money and the flowers yeah I'm in a rush tryna get to the spot call the Mariachi tell em to hurry (Before) she arrives Yeah it's true I ordered a Mariachi band to meet me at the top of a hillside in La Jolla A heavy heart, not knowing what she was gonna think She might think I'm crazy for this It's been uh, it's been six months since we've seen each other There's a lot of emotions a lot of feelings between us we haven't really worked out And I, don't know what she's gonna say but Please listen carefully This is me telling the truth air it out for the world to see I wasn't round for her graduation I put paper chasing over human nature It's bittersweet, last spring was supposed to be in Italy I know if I love you then I gotta set you free And if change gon' come then it starts with me (Yeah) There she go, to Cali, all new friends, all new scene Cut me off she blocked my phone ya she hates me Lonely Je Suis I need to be alone again it's farewell But I set you up again thought you was meeting a friend By the ocean what a fucked up fairytale I met you round 4:45 When you walked up we lock eyes Sorry I showed up you were shocked and surprised She couldn't believe I was standing in sight Ima ghost from her path that she wishes would die Ima ghost from her past she can't look in the eye without tears falling by her side You gotta just let go, move on, move on it's alright I'm killing the ego I know that's what's caused me my problems I gotta respect her and give her her space for the first time It's time to move on I hope you live your best life