Favourite Son

I could be the only one that ever makes it work I'm the favorite son coz I don't touch the herbs Me & bro is one of one although my momma' always hurt Tired of seeing tears they might just stop if he can blow I think he tired of being here, although he played A part in all All the pain that's creeping near, how daddy left us on our own I know this niqqa hella' selfish least' he's living what he talked If he can make it happen, all the soars might just be gone But he's still living on that day job, kids his age they make a plan or they just die young And I don't wanna' hear bout' raps or how he'll make it big Life with no degrees it gaht some consequence I worked so hard build this life but you keep shiting on my face like I'm a pot to piss It's all the drugs you keep on taking, prayed to God you wouldn't end up like Lerato's kid Why you keep tearing me up my heart like I don't wanna' see To this day I pay that loan I took that other year Just for you to drop-out kinda' disappointed, deep inside I gaht a lot of fear But Mom you know it's gotta' rain before the clouds can clear And no I'm not insane I'm just a little shallow It's all these many shadows, expecting way too much from people that I'm pose to love Looking round' the house like these the family values? Man I don't know, i might just take just another puff Holding on to thoughts [thots] that keep a niqqa outta' love That's why my muse is mellow She gaht me fantasising, hypnotising devils in disguise Scriptures of my pastures, Paul Coelho in his prime Scriptures of my pastor, almost took a piece of mine So please forgive if my choices felt like I was committing crimes I wx floating in Nirvana just hoping I've frozen time Destined to feeling shameless, I'm breathless from all the tries If you love me you'll love yourself & let it go for peace of mind My failures are only mine Until I shine, peace