Did It To Myself (feat. Lights)

I was this close To callin' it off To takin' a loss To fuckin' pullin' a boss I know you feel me But I only feel me I'm a Achilles My own Achilles Even when you believe in nothin' You get down on your knees and pray Even when you're down, down low You tolerate the day Even when you wanna run Sometimes you stay Even when you wanna run Sometimes you stay I did it to myself I really did it I did it to myself Put poison in the well Now I'm swimmin' in it Did it to myself Did it to my Did it to myself Did it to my Did it to my Did it to my Did it to myself My thoughts were so far Away from our bed While you were asleep I'm fuckin' her in my head It's not a love life It's a daydream When it's over So is the mystery And you'll kiss me My own Achilles Even though I believe in nothin' I get down on my knees and pray Even when I'm down, down low I tolerate the day Even when I wanna run Sometimes I stay Even when I wanna run Sometimes I stay I did it to myself I really did it I did it to myself Put poison in the well Now I'm swimmin' in it I did it to myself Did it to my Did it to myself Did it to my Did it to my Did it to my Did it to myself It's that I will lie Can I have your thoughts on that? Maybe it's misplaced confidence Breakin' my heart right back I know you feel me I know you feel me You're my Achilles But knowin' doesn't help Yeah, I wish I didn't Did it to my Did it to my Put poison in the well Now I'm swimmin' in it I did it to myself I did it to myself I did it to my I did it to myself I did it to my Did it to my Did it to my Did it to myself Put poison in the well Now I'm swimmin' in it I did it to myself To myself