I Never Feel Lonely (feat. E the Rapper & Dubbs)

I feel myself changing in the past few years I got rid of all my friends and I don't have new peers I have no interest in people The way they're all polite and peaceful I avoid cause I'm schizoid my feelings they were destroyed 99% of my time alone and there's no big void Most people would get lonely by themselves and feel pain Listen when their parents tell them try to make a real change Hated my time in high school simply put I was so deranged Hate it when I see somebody smile it makes me feels strange I hate when people talk I never take off my headphones My music to me is a gemstone when I leave the house I wanna get home I used to want love and I wanted to have a family Now I never talk of those wishes incapacity To feel things taken over now I just wanna be number 1 And you will notice I run from fun people I really got love for none And I'm just gonna stay alone I'm always feeling crazy and I hate em' all You know I'm crazy I never feel lonely So I'm just gonna do music and stay alone E don't even chill no more, E don't even go out E's a contradiction as he's sitting in his own house Bottle that he sipping got him twisted as he zones out He won't even listen he's convinced to go his own route But why would I acknowledge you? No one ever follows through And can't do with this bottle dude quit fucking with my solitude! E just needs companionship, someone he likes talking to You need to understand that we're built from different molecules! I think you need a doctor... you need to mind your fuckin business! I make all the tough decisions I ain't got no fuckin sickness All that stressing and depression is for fuckin bitches! I know a couple therapists well I don't care enough to listen! I ain't no punk or victim got a couple bucks for liquor Sorry I erupted, listen I ain't drink enough to kick in! I understand, but you really need to trust my wisdom Why the fuck am I debating with a fuckin figment? And I'm just gonna stay alone I'm always feeling crazy and I hate em' all You know I'm crazy I never feel lonely So I'm just gonna do music and stay alone Yuh, maybe I don't like you, people, none of ya'll are interesting Or maybe I'm a narcissist don't get who isn't in his skin I'm different I got companionship the shit that gives me grins Is sitting in this box inside my house and tryna' get it in I don't really miss the friends I used to have when I was younger So fuck a lunch right now I got a different kind of hunger No, I don't go out, roll to the club and show out I live a life that not too many even know bout' They might think I'm a bit depressed or I'm living less But I'm good right here living so forget the rest The mic is calling me the only one I ever hear You straight to voicemail motherfuckas' never there When I need you around so I became this way Maybe I'm twisted or maybe this how the game is played This ain't a plea and this isn't a fuckin' cry for help I'm just trying to find myself, by myself And I'm just gonna stay alone I'm always feeling crazy and I hate em' all You know I'm crazy I never feel lonely So I'm just gonna do music and stay alone