SYMBIOTIC SUICIDE

Deadbeat

Mocked by blurred out faces

Grin the same, but always shifting places

And from what I see

No-one else is aware, is it only me?

God, erase me

I'm doomed and I'm slowly going fucking crazy

Cursed to look just like you

My own mother is too afraid to face me

Formative years soaked in grey

A childhood spent running just so we could feel safe

But you knew then, and you know it still

The apathy in your eyes would slowly kill me

I feel the sting of wind and rain

Yet it won't wash away all this fucking shame

Every crash leaves a deafening silence

Cautioning impending violence

Mocked by blurred out faces

Grin the same, but always shifting places

So when you look at me

You can see the product that trauma breeds

I lost all sense of family

The day you tried to murder my mother and me

No love, no reparations

For a deadbeat cunt

I lost all sense of family

The day you tried to murder my mother and me