An Ode to Envy

This isn't over in my head I'm trying to make it stop But I can't put these tiresome thoughts to bed In my kaleidoscopic mind Rumination paints a picture neither you nor I designed My transition is incomplete I'm so green with envy I've become the ground beneath your feet The colour always turns to red Now a dagger dangles over me And it's hanging by a thread The closer we became The more I longed to love you from afar I cut you out and it left a scar I built you up to be unreal Now I'll build a wall around myself to hide the way I feel If you get close enough to me I'll try to own you But you can't put a price on someone who is free I want you to myself and I've become consumed by my own greed I have an ego to feed And I only want you to be happy if you're happy here with me That's the fuel for my jealousy And it makes me dangerous company You may wish to stay away from me You may wish to stay away from me Yeah, you may wish to stay away Yeah, you just may