Scapegoat

I have heard more stories of myself Than those that reside in my mind Not to say it's all fake I've made mistakes All I can take away is No one says a thing to my fucking face No friends only enemies You may be alive but you've Always been dead to me All ends no new beginnings You may have survived but you'll Always be dead to me It's no surprise I'm your scapegoat After all I am an animal Pleased To be your scapegoat After all I'm an animal Say what you will Say what you want to say I feel no pain And I never cared anyway What did you think You could ever do to me That these eyes haven't seen I have felt everything Once you have it all You're left with the emptiness I remember vividly All of the ways life bloomed intro tragedy Spiraling cycles of cynical thoughts I have never known the real me They say You should just give up Admit enough is enough You'll never be what you've dreamed of Get by put it away inside I can, tell stories through my eyes Not all are here To conquer and defy Some only drain And exist to occupy The only option To construct walls miles high And to never trust a soul with the choices That one day may guide your life Separate your heart From your mind Beauty in the dark Blackened in my heart White over my eyes Emptiness inside Biting my nails Biding my time Waiting my turn Taking what's mine I will live this life All alone Even when the path is cold I never needed A hand to hold I was given this life To be on my own My dreams may be deceased So why even try Always remember My final goodbye And so as these letters spell The tales that tell my life Forever the truth survives I will never die Growing pains I consist of hollow veins I've become What I became I sold my soul For broken dreams Someday, you should listen to yourself Maybe then you'll realize You don't truly care for anyone else Self interest is undeniable Nothing in the world Is as ugly As the ego