The One I Used to Love

Scarlet lipstick in the backseat Of a New York city taxi It was raining It was that night when you asked me "When's the last time we were happy?" You were swaying So I sighed, rolled my eyes Almost made it to the end of the night, mmm Then I had to say exactly The wrong thing at the wrong time Silence filled the air with violence You could cut it with a knife Now I'm lost at sea, at what cost I'm free On an odyssey of apologies My dependencies got the best of me Now the rest of me struggles endlessly But you'll always be the one I used to love The one I used to love Tears were flowing instead of champagne In the first class of an airplane What an upgrade When I landed's when the text came You were asking me to explain What I can't say Filled the void, got destroyed But the hole in my heart still remained, yeah Then I had to say exactly The wrong thing once again Silence filled the air with violence You could cut it with a knife Now I'm lost at sea, at what cost I'm free On an odyssey of apologies My dependencies got the best of me Now the rest of me struggles endlessly But you'll always be the one I used to love Forgot who I am, so I swam in the ocean I fuck up the plan, just to feel some emotion Drink all that I can, like I want to be broken I don't give a damn, when I'm lost in the moment Forgot who I am, so I swam in the ocean (nobody listens to me) I fuck up the plan, just to feel some emotion (not me, especially) Drink all that I can, (so I drink all that I can) Like I want to be broken (always one hell of a plan) I don't give a damn, (feel like a shell of a man) When I'm lost in the moment (so in the ocean I swam) Now I'm lost at sea, at what cost I'm free On an odyssey of apologies My dependencies got the best of me Now the rest of me struggles endlessly But you'll always be the one I used to love But you'll always be the one I used to love The one I used to love