Faultline

It's funny how I sensed it, funny how I knew How one so easily became two We went to either end and now we're in-between 'Cause all we ever did was replay the same scene I didn't wanna say it, hoped it wasn't true I know you thought it came out of the blue I could barely even look you in the eye And I don't know why I couldn't even cry I need to let go, let go 'Cause you're not my responsibility And though I don't show, you must know Thе way we were was slowly killing mе We turned our relationship into a faultline But I'm still addicted to you in the same way you are addicted to wine So we fell apart But all we had was broken from the start And I knew Despite all of this, I still can't let go I'm still dreaming of you I must be out of my mind Pretending I am doing just fine When deep down inside All I ever wanted was your love I tried to comprehend it, tried to tell the truth Stop thinking of myself and think of you But validation wasn't easy to receive And I got swallowed up by insecurity I wanted to be perfect, wanted to be strong Hide from everyone if I got something wrong Thought I was easier to love if I was thin So I stopped eating and stopped feeling anything I need to let go, let go Of who I thought you wanted me to be And though I don't show, you must know My voice got lost because I couldn't breathe We turned our relationship into a faultline But I'm still addicted to you in the same way you are addicted to wine So we fell apart But all we had was broken from the start And I knew Despite all of this, I still can't let go I'm still dreaming of you I must be out of my mind Pretending I am doing just fine When deep down inside All I ever wanted was your love