Worst Time of Year

This time of year always sucks but it's worse now

You were the buffer between me and break down

Now round the table saying why we’re grateful

I can't come up with one thought that's not hateful

Mom got too drunk now she's trashing my dad

We always swore we won't end up like that

But now I get it how hurt turns to hatred

And it eats you alive so I might as well say it

How dare you just go

Right when it got cold

When you really know it’s my worst time of year

I’m forced to fake cheer

With people I hate

And you were the one thing that made it okay

Now I'm trying to drink it off

Wishing I could make it stop

Yanking down the stupid lights

So nobody can see me cry cause

You had to just go

Right when it got cold

When you really know it’s my worst time of year

They're stuffing the stockings

I’m stalking your page

They ask what you’re doing

And what can I say?

That I know for certain

You’re high at ur moms

Cause you used to bring me

Back when I belonged

How dare you just go

Right when it got cold

When you really know it’s my worst time of year

I’m forced to fake cheer

With people I hate

And you were the one thing that made it okay

Now I'm trying to drink it off

Wishing I could make it stop

Yanking down the stupid lights

So nobody can see me cry cause

You had to just go

Right when it got cold

When you really know it’s my worst time of year

Cause you know I hate the spirit

Smiling for the photographs

Fighting with my perfect family

None of them have got my back

Now I don’t even want the presents

Nothing that I could unwrap

Could replace the way you saved me

Worst time of year

I’m forced to fake cheer

With people I hate

And you were the one thing that made it okay

Now I'm trying to drink it off

Wishing I could make it stop

Yanking down the stupid lights

So nobody can see me cry cause

You had to just go

Right when it got cold

When you really know it’s my worst time of year