MERRY GO ROUND

I'd sell my soul to feel alive again Some days, I wish I could pretend So sick of wakin' up in the mornings I find myself prayin' to God again I don't know if I hear a friend 'Cause it's just me doin' the talkin' I'm stuck inside this merry-go-round Don't know if I wanna get out What's so wrong bein' honest? 'Cause I drink too much, I think too much I barely like myself enough I say, "I'm fine," but I hurt inside I fall in love, I fuck it up Then wonder what the fuck it was It's all a lie, and I'm terrified All my days feelin' like weeks again I find myself spiralin' With every turn, I lose a piece of my heart Stuck inside this merry-go-round Don't know if I wanna get out What's so wrong with bein' honest? 'Cause I drink too much, I think too much I barely like myself enough I say, "I'm fine," but I hurt inside I fall in love, I fuck it up Then wonder what the fuck it was It's all a lie, and I'm terrified And I'm on my knees, surrounded Just underneath, I'm drownin' It is all a lie, and I'm terrified I drink too much, I think too much I barely like myself enough I say, "I'm fine," but I hurt inside I fall in love, I fuck it up Then wonder what the fuck it was It's all a lie, and I'm terrified