Endlessly

This is something that controls me I don't wanna fight what I can't see While I build myself a new reality, reality Try to miss it but I can't Redefining your comfort Try to pretend it never happened at all But I've already tried that I feel nothin' Just a strategy, I'm playing I can't spell it out My thoughts are rushing Being in suspense for nothing (for nothing) Does it matter but I have to try I don't wanna but I lose the fight Can I make it so to make it feel alright Sit here waste my time (yeah) Try to miss it but I can't Redefining my comfort Try to pretend it never happened at all But I've already tried that I feel nothin' Just a strategy, I'm playing I can't spell it out My thoughts are rushing Being in suspense for nothing (for nuthing) I don't wanna try to constantly Perfecting my life I don't wanna know what I could have become but I'm not I don't think much about it I don't think I should And don't be rule-abiding But I don't think I'm