Starting to Scare Me

There's a girl on the internet and she drives me insane I should probably look into it but I'd rather complain I throw gas on the fire 'cause I don't wanna change I just keep choosing the pain There's a crack in my windshield I probably won't ever fix I've been breaking my neck so I can see around it And I know I know better, but I'm stubborn as shit I'm just a sucker for it I keep digging myself deeper I'm not mad about it either Maybe I should care Maybe I should stop But the more I wear it, the more I like How it feels on me Have I lost my mind? I'm still me, but barely I'm starting to scare me I live in a city where everybody's a critic I guess that it's made me a little too analytical I'm picking apart things I actually like 'Cause I wish they were mine I keep digging myself deeper I'm not mad about it either Maybe I should care Maybe I should stop But the more I wear it, the more I like How it feels on me Have I lost my mind? I'm still me, but barely I'm starting to scare me I'm self destructive I wish I wasn't I'd rip out my heart to feel it 'Cause feeling something's (feeling something's) Better than nothing (better than nothing) Even if it kills me Oh, maybe I should care Maybe I should stop But the more I wear it, the more I like How it feels on me Like I'm tearing down walls I built carefully I'm starting to scare me I'm starting to scare me I'm still me, but barely I'm starting to scare me I'm starting to scare me