Hide Behind My Disguise

I don't think you understand Just how much I've had to go through To get to here where I am at right now The amount of pain, the amount of bullshit (Cobra) but all you need to know is that I'm here now And you will remember this name (yeah, yeah, yeah) Hide behind my disguise So when you see me, please don't be surprised You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah Hide behind my disguise So when you see me, please don't be surprised You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eyе Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yеah Pain and sorrow makes me hate tomorrow Happiness I borrow from my drugs and bottles This demon inside me made me forget what's really the real me No, I don't believe that I'll make it to 30 'Cause I hurt way too much, so I'm better off dying Broken soul, more like a broken home Demons take control over my brain and soul (brain and soul) If I die then maybe peace I'll find Too many tears I've cried, hope for another life Hide behind my disguise So when you see me, please don't be surprised You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah Hide behind my disguise So when you see me, please don't be surprised You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah Fake smile (fake smile), cold nights (cold nights) Rewind (rewind) to old times When I was living sober, that's before I sipped wine If I make it to October it'll be a new guy But a new guy don't seem right Can't imagine making music with no pain that's inside Guess I'm destined for this life and that's the way I'll save lives But If I ever lose my mother, that's the day that I'll die I can't hide this pain I feel inside Feel like I'm losing mine And I'm stuck inside my mind Self medicate-cating on the weed and wine Now I'm losing my mind, can someone take my life? Hide behind my disguise So when you see me, please don't be surprised You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah Hide behind my disguise So when you see me, please don't be surprised You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah