Close to Dying

You talk to me with a knife to your throat

That's what you say when we fight til

It's dawn

And it has become our daily routine

I no longer know what's left of me

Now you say you miss me oh God I miss me too

I wish I could be who I used to be for you

I only love you when we're driving

When you're speeding up the car

When we're the closest to dying

Cuz then I

I wanna jump out I wanna feel alive

I don't know who you are

But you're no longer mine

I only love you when we're driving

When we're close to dying

I've tried to explain it in gentle ways

How I don't see myself with your name

But you're immune to everything that I say

You're standing so steady in my way

And you say you hate me and God I hate me too

I wish I could be who I used to be for you

I only love you when we're driving

When you're speeding up the car

When we're the closest to dying

Cuz then I wanna jump out I wanna feel alive

I don't know who you are but you're no longer mine

I only love you when we're driving

When we're close to dying