Shivers (feat. Hustl£ & Mic Righteous)

I get shivers when I think about it

I was 9 years old

Imagine seeing your mum call

You answer it

And that's when you get told

To come home

Somethings happened

Your older brothers had an accident

He's gone

Standing in the kitchen with my mum and my other brother

There was tears as we held and we hugged each other

The heart break

He wasn't even old

And I never got the time with him

Steven bro I'm gonna make you proud

James is married now

You'll remember him

I never got to meet you

And I'm questioning

What you woulda been like

Nan and grandad gave me your bike

And I'll cherish that forever

Its in the garage back at mums house

I'll get it out when England has better weather

So big brother here's a message

I wish I could talk to you

I wish that you grew up with me

I wish that things were different and just better

Dad didn't bother

Tigers never change their spots

And he's still wearing leather

Well I think Its leopards

Either way I gotta keep my head up

I was getting kinda fed up

Cause I know that life's a set up

I don't wanna play this game today

Roll the dice and aim today

Tryna make my brothers proud

Our name will never fade away

Mum I'm sorry everyday

For mistakes that I may have made

Man I miss the times when it was just us

And Poppy

Things will never be the the same

But time can't stop me

I'll preach and make sure that I do it properly

With the words

In my vocabulary

But I still get times when I can't stop these

Cold shivers everyday

Tryna find the words to say

It's all a game

That we didn't wanna play

But we did it anyway

And now I'm like

Pain lives inside of me

I've been tryna find myself

These clothes are made of skin

Tryna see what's deep within

I've been traveling on my way

I been looking for the words to say

This journey is my own

& there's no place like home

But at night I still get shivers

I feel it deep in my heart

The memories are brief

I try to breathe but I can't

I lost my brother Marc

I still remember the pain like

It's the present day

Like it ain't even the past

I remember the scenes

The police at the yard

The screams

I still can't believe that you past

Now I'm living with these scars

Sending Shivers down my arms

I needed therapy but I just

Speak through these bars like

I just speak through these bars

You're the reason I laugh when I been through the hard times

Still feel your energy

I mean it I can't lie

Visions in my dreams

When I sleep through the dark night

You still come to visit

I believe that you can't die

I believe that it's our time

I'll leave it to God now

I ain't even gonna ask

Why I experienced loss now

I've lost out

Thinking 'bout

All the shit I gone through

Knowing one day

I'm even gonna lose my Pops too

Bro I can't brag

No matter how much I want to

Angels look down from the clouds

And they watch you

They got me

Yeah

And I promise that they got you

And if you feel Shivers

It's just proof that they're around you

They found you

Something higher up

To ground you

To keep you on a righteous path

When you don't know how to

When you're down and out

And feel like the world is better off without you

You're never on your own the spirit

Of everyones around you

I said when you're down and out

And the world is better off without you

Never give up on yourself

Because you're not allowed to

Cold shivers everyday

Tryna find the words to say

It's all a game

That we didn't wanna play

But we did it anyway

And now I'm like

Pain lives inside of me

I've been tryna find myself

These clothes are made of skin

Tryna see what's deep within

I've been traveling on my way

I been looking for the words to say

This journey is my own

& there's no place like home

But at night I still get shivers

But at night I still get shivers