I Don't Like Who I Was Then

Tossed around like sea glass And you rounded out my edges I'll feel better when the headaches go away I've got a scar across my forehead Turning purple in the cold From a night at Shore Memorial I was 16 and afraid Turned away And I'm working baby face Out of Mid-South in the '80s I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks I want to run 'til my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up I think enough is enough Hidden in the tall grass In the naked light of day Put my past self in the ground I've been dancing on the grave I'm not the person that I was then I'm tearing him away I was bitter, I was careless I was 19 and afraid But you deserve more from me I don't know why I would say those things But you deserve more than me And I'm trying every day I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks I want to run 'til my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up I think enough is enough You left me walking in circles You were a shot in the dark You were the baby teeth I buried You were the sounds of distant cars You left me walking in circles You were a shot in the dark You were the banner that says no one That I tattooed across my heart You left me walking in circles You were a shot in the dark You scattered like ashes across every song that I write You are the light pollution starts I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks I want to run 'til my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up Enough is enough