Parasites

Oh persistence prolonged I've been writing these songs about righting my wrongs Temptation to test my resolve The craving had left but never had gone These thoughts, they keep me awake Try to move on, just keep running in place Like a sickness that I could not shake Swallowing lies like medicine and wait for them to take Never gonna change, never gonna change, never gonna change, we're never gonna change, never gonna change, never gonna change (I can change, my wanting ways, breaths left to take, make sure they don't go to waste) Close your eyes, listen close Hear the distant echoes of a life unknown In lies yet there's truth to be told I guess faking blind is just one way to cope Oh how the wanting endures Clear the smoke from my lungs, still the cough cant be cured You play with fire, you're gonna get burned You're gonna get what you deserve They say we're never gonna change, never gonna change, never gonna change, we're never gonna change, never gonna change, never gonna change Yes it's true I've been seeing ghosts Of the you I used to know Speaking through the dial tone Reflections in my windows My whole life Spent passive Just passing time Stoic and stagnant Idle for a sign Like a child believes in magic Or some naive rationale To keep these feelings captive All my friends say that I have changed, tell me how do you explain, Their lives take forward course and shape, while I've remained in the same damn place Just keep speaking what you're told to say, fit the mold and play it safe, mark these words upon my grave, "he is not what he became" We are the choices we make I've heard, The chances we take I've learned The fears that we face, the lessons learn from our mistakes There was something in her eyes, I could not place A feeling from inside, she could not fake No matter best I try, I am never as good as the way she says my name I will be good with just being ok All my life Cynicism Made its way from my lips into my Bloodstream Like parasites Suffering symptoms So long now it seems this sickness is a part of me I will be good, But I can be better, And I will rid of you like a matchstick to the gasoline The flames will rise And burn my eyes I put my faith in a fallacy I will be good, but I could be better (I can change, my wanting ways, breaths left to take, make sure they don't go to waste) I will be good but I could be better if I tried If I was anyone else this would not be a crime