Doubts Even Here

Those steps which seem to take a lifetime When eyes just turn and stare Day begins, collapsing without warning You fade from sight, there's nothing there No hope allowed, calls are answered daily Questions are on your side Deeply moved, beyond all consolation You felt the pulse, now, hear the cry In my mind thoughts are becoming clearer I'm watching every move you make Counting time spent in observation A single blow, a false mistake Then you revealed to me All that I need to know now (I was dazed, and I could not speak) Then please don't turn away Why can't I talk to you now? (My thoughts went back to times long past) There's nowhere left to go (I remembered forgotten years) Where is this taking her and how? (All night long, I was in deep distress) (As I lay thinking, my spirit was sunk in deep despair) There's nothing more I want To know beyond your trust now (will the Lord reject us for evermore and never again show favor?) (Has his unfailing love now failed us utterly?) Don't throw our joy away Why must you just you leave now? (Must his promise time and again be unfulfilled?) Memories are all that's left (has God forgotten to be gracious?) I need you near to me now (has he in anger withheld his mercies?) (But then, O Lord, I call to mind thy deeds) (I recall thy wonderful acts in times gone by)