Balance

I'm not sleeping much, can't keep in touch

My dad and I ain't speaking much

The people that I love the most are people I don't see for months

The girl that's on my mind works all the time, she knows I do it too

But now I think the more I find myself, the more I'm losing you

And life is what you make it, all these vices and these virtues

Why you fight the ones that love you

When you like the ones that hurt you?

I ain't mad, she's a rider and she knows there ain't no stopping now

But I can't help but wonder who she's fucking when I'm not in town

I'm down in Tennessee or maybe out in Venice Beach

I hope that you just think of me and not these childish tendencies

Sometimes I'm still a boy, just trying to fill a void

Just doing the things I have to, you act like it's still a choice

All these bitches, all of these bills

And I'm thinking about you still

All my family and my friends

That Camry or that Benz

That hoping and that dreaming

Those nights we stayed up scheming

You won't ever see me shook but this ain't easy as it looks

Can't find my balance, balance

Can't find my balance

Can't find my balance

Can't find my balance

Yeah, fresh pack of 'Ports, she smoking

When she hit the bar, it's always open

Yeah, I'm all in that I'll be stroking

Yeah, still trying to perfect my motion

And she drink it all in small doses

Taking pictures all on my phone

Yeah, got pockets full of them posers

Rolling up, she still in her rollers

Got no time for all of them roses

Goddamn right, ****, fuck your flowers

Yeah, it's 4 AM, we still up taking shots in my shower

Said she dig it, and I don't doubt her

And I wonder if she'll stick around though I tend to leave

And then bend the rules so they work for me

And I keep it chill but leave room to breathe

'Cause everything I need just seems so far away

As I delay, I see it all decay

So I might be back tomorrow but oh darling, I'm so gone today

I'm so gone today

All these bitches, all of these bills

And I'm thinking about you still

All my family and my friends

That Camry or that Benz

That hoping and that dreaming

Those nights we stayed up scheming

You won't ever see me shook but this ain't easy as it looks

Can't find my balance, balance

Can't find my balance

Can't find my balance

Can't find my balance

Yeah, we go fast, it's so real

We don't ask, we don't tell

It won't last, we both pretend

We wanna talk, we hold it in

She pop a pill, I smoke again

Distant lovers, broken friends

Can't find my balance

Can't find my balance

Can't find my balance