My Dearest Jacob

Searching, I'm searching I can't seem to find A meaning to me, a meaning to life Counting down till my last breath Trying to keep all my thoughts in check My time is running out I can feel it ticking in my head When the clock strikes twelve It will be the end My eyes are open wide It's like I'm seeing for the first time I feel the light shine upon me It's telling me what I can be I don't know which path to take I'm losing grip on reality What is real what is not But I must make a choice I can't try and think with all of this noise Oh make it stop Please make it stop It is midnight I said i wanted to leave this place This life is mine to take I'm making my choice tonight Tonight My eyes are open wide It's like I'm seeing for the first time I feel the light shine upon me It's telling me what I can be I don't have to choose Just let me be