Meaningless

I still smell of sweat Still the scent of my giving in Tried to feel regret But I want it to stay on my skin I still fantasize Close my eyes to the wrong again Still those 'fuck me' eyes As I'm licking the palm of my hand How the hell am I supposed to keep myself When you are so damn far away And everything feels meaningless And I am not mine? How the hell am I supposed to keep myself When you are so damn far away And everything feels meaningless And I am not mine? I still smell of sex Still her taste on my fingertips Try to feel remorse But it's hard with her wet on my lips How the hell am I supposed to keep myself When you are so damn far away And everything feels meaningless And I am not mine? How the hell am I supposed to keep myself When you are so damn far away And all I do seems meaningless And I am not mine? I need something of my own Something with a locked door A room just for me alone Something that I can control I need something of my own I need something cutting to the bone I need something that is mine If that must be guilt then fine (How the hell) I wanted something nice and fine This guilt is a hole but it's mine I wanted something nice This guilt is a hole but it's mine