Depression (feat. Moniere Nance)

Maybe if I would have known about the life I choose I would have re-thought my decision Maybe even dispose The thoughts of being involved with this life at all But I would rather feel pain, than feel nothing at all I push on, I've lost it for way too long I will not betray whats kept me alive so far It's amazing to see just how many lives I've touched From the words that I speak and I'll never give that up I'm tired of living in hell on Earth The crazy thing about it, is it could be so much worse I've watched toddlers eat dirt, somewhere in a third world With a smile on their face, just because they got to eat God Damn Is my life that bad I've witnessed my dad quit crack And my moms been dying, but at least shes alive Everything seems better when I close my eyes I don't want to sleep forever Can't seem to open up my eyes I just wish things would get better I just want to enjoy my life I just go to sleep when I feel the pain When I fade to black it all gets erased And every time I wake it's too hard to see And too much to take so I'd rather dream I don't want to sleep forever Can't seem to open up my eyes Even with open eyes, I never feel alive Bottle the pain inside and hide from the light Too afraid to try, I'm holding back my life But too afraid to die, I'd never sacrifice Myself to these demons inside Distracted but keeping in mind That I'm all out of time and if I dont provide I'll end up in the ground, I refuse to let all of you down Alive today that's more than some can say The fact that I can breathe, gives me a chance to speak And when I blurt these words, you gain a piece of me It's common decency, because unbelievably You give to me, so I give back I used to used music to distract Now I'm doing what I'm doing for anyone under weather Relate to my movement, were in the rain together. I don't want to sleep forever Can't seem to open up my eyes I just wish things would get better I just want to enjoy my life I just go to sleep when I feel the pain When I fade to black it all gets erased And every time I wake it's too hard to see And too much to take so I'd rather dream I don't want to sleep forever Can't seem to open up my eyes