Rad But Not Really

I am emotional and I don't talk that well

Small talk with anyone that I don't know is hell

My social tendencies have got me by the throat

It's so bad that all i do is fucking choke

You don't need to know me

To know that i hate your guts

I think I need to leave

I'm having perseverating thoughts

Why do I still talk through movies, when I'm nervous?

I just hope you think i'm funny, and are enjoying this. All my friends say I have problems, acting how I feel

But I hate being vulnerable

And I hate being forward

But I need you to stay away

Don't act like you're dependent

It's not like you need me anyways

I know you're not sleeping

You're just waiting for me to say

Something I'll regret tomorrow

But I'll say it anyways

I hate you, I hate myself

I always wish I was someone else

Or maybe no one, i'm not sure