oh god make me pure

cleanse my soul and joie de vivre restore to us all

I'm not asking

I'm sure

I know that I want it

I swear

I'm not fucking around

I am straight faced and scowling and

spitting out words from my core

I can't figure it out

I thought that I had it

I felt it like static

it burnt when I grabbed it

I swear that I had it

easy like the drinks I swallow

cuz baby I've got no path to follow

I just want to feel it again

the pulse of a heartbeat like life never ends

I wanted to hear it again

the sound of a crowd cheering we're on the mend

I wanted to feel it it again

everything feels so uncertain

yet habit, goddamnit, is standing its petulant ground

It's ok sweetie, it's easy,

believe me

god help me out

i'm devout-ly

trying to be what I thought that I'd be with no doubt

I see it fade so easy

easy, fuck

It's not easy, fuck

I wanted to feel it again the pulse of a heartbeat like life never ends

and I thought that I'd see it again

the bright eyed and wandering gaze towards a distant gold place where it's

easy like the drinks I swallow

cuz lately, it feels like trash... is to follow

I just want to feel it again

the pulse of a heartbeat like life never ends

I wanted to see it again

the ground beneath right where I stand

I wanted to feel it again

I can't stop losing the rhythm

I can't keep on falling to pieces and

gritting my teeth

I keep hold of the rhythm

I slip into cycles I wish it would end