Inexplicable

Inexplicably high, inexplicably low I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams Not in the now, no, not in the now When I was four I raised my finger to a moving car It crashed so I assumed I had a superpower I didn't raise that finger until I was nine When a schoolboy attacked for the 25th time Down I went, my index still up So convinced that he would just drop Powerless to make it stop Powerless to make it stop Inexplicably high, inexplicably low I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams Not in the now, no, not in the now At nineteen, I still just about believed in God I guess that I was pretty late to shake it off Faulty magic whispered to the man who could mend I tricked myself in thinking he could cure my best friend Two weeks in, his insides gave up If drugs can't help, why would words bring him luck? Powerless to make it stop Powerless to make it stop Inexplicably high, inexplicably low I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams Not in the now, no, not in the now Now my hands are pulling at the donkey's reins I feel I've gone the wrong route down a dusty lane The grass could have been greener down the first road I took I'd give half my happiness just for one look My lust to win is eating me up The game I can't win up against my own clock Powerless to make it stop Powerless to make it stop Inexplicably high, inexplicably low I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams Not in the now, no, not in the now Inexplicably high, inexplicably low I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams Not in the now, no, not in the now Inexplicably high, inexplicably low I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams Not in the now, no, not in the now