Life Is Killing Me

My heart feels young My body feels old My mind just feels like it's trying to please them both Left my back on the kitchen floor where we laid And my feet have been rotting from The places I have bathed Pessimism, you're on my side my old friend You make the bad come as a no shock Once again Sometimes "why?" is a question That I wish I never even learned They say to go with my gut But there's a hole that I can't keep shut I wear fucked on my sleeve I hate what I can't change There's a difference between running from something And searching for anything Pessimism, you're on my side My old friend You make the bad come as a notion Once again And the good as holy as a downpour After all the rain dances left us Begging the gods for more Sometimes "why?" is a question That I wish I never even learned They say to go with my gut But there's a hole that I can't keep shut It would kill me to tell you That this country got the best of my morals It would kill me to tell you Out of fifty states I only feel right in one Sometimes "why?" is a question That I wish I never even learned They say to go with my gut But there's a hole that I can't keep shut