Regret

Shattered by the voice

Something tells me this isn't normal

Her red eyes

Her sunken expression lives

The words come slowly and forceful

I remind myself to listen

Remember

Repeat

I push the phone away and gather my courage to tell her

She must know that

I won't leave her alone

Keep me out of sight

Focus on this

I won't hurt like this right now

I will be forever changed and I will be forever changed

It's her journey and I'm right there with her

It's the reality that scares me the most

I can't dive in too deep

Or it will swallow me

Why won't this go away

I try to focus but I fail

My head is an anchor

Bringing me down to the level I don't want to be

My head is an anchor

Bringing me down to the level I don't want to be

Brace yourself for the days to come

It gets harder before it gets better

I'm so lost

My head is an anchor

Bringing me down to the level I don't want to be