The Bull King

Do you like it babe? How I want to talk hardly Someone say some grace for the soon to be departed Hardest thing I've done and I just was getting started Guess it's true that some people just meant to be forgotten Yesterday I woke up Ok fine I was still awake needed no alarm Took the Louis off my arm Cuz honestly I don't know who the fuck Louis is And if I were to try and recollect any of the times I've been inside those types of stores I Couldn't tell you where the cash register was Should I be worried Should I tell no one That this shit ain't art I just sell drugs I've been fooling myself Make them think I got funds Feeling nervous a bit Should I just bite my tongue Where's the part where this stops So it can be blamed on being young I ain't done shit my whole life can't even attempt my pr Bond has me waiting till they find me again i know it's not that hard Going crazy not knowing what to do til they pick me up in that car Picking up cigarettes just a fiend for that tar Remember when I was a kid collecting them in a jar To show em to my dad so he'd stop polluting the yard Never showed him though Such a missing role in my life but know my actions helped make all these scars But shit at least that mother fucker could hold down a job Pay the rent and stay devoted enough to take care of my mom While I be in and out of consciousness dodging the law Hoping I don't have to face decisions that ill still go and make tomorrow And the next day And the day after that Poured out the love so I could embrace the sorrow Feels the same as empty might as well just be hollow Might as well be hollow Might as well be hollow Momma I've been in and out of court rooms And honestly I'm tripping But one thing I can't do is turn around and start snitching Another thing I can't do is live no different Or fucking listen Or change this distance This pains each instance Fuck this shit hurts With how every song was such hard fucking work There I was Fighting the world Fighting my girl Fighting this needle My thoughts keep running this shit evil But they already told me it was But like I said mom this shit has me tripping I sit around constant bitchin The girl I love steady drifting We don't make love no more Its my fault I feel so inadequate from all that im listing At least I used to make her laugh but who the fuck was i kidding Guess G.umFVNK was the joke There's something in my brain missing Not looking for pity Not really looking for anything These are just my thoughts And how my life's progressed Not really much progress Not seen too much success Just incessantly stress I wish I sent more texts I wish I stopped wishing for more and realize that im already blessed And just acknowledge at the very least I gave this shit my best Easier said than done though My minds such a fucking mess If I die today I'm sorry If I die tomorrow I'm sorry too If I die on the third day just know I thought it through And I just want to stop thinking if only you all knew Can't believe I'm saying this but I think I might be through With All of this chasing Please don't call while I'm pacing Hope to see you again before they bust down my door and I'm taken Love you Momma