Lost

Where do I go? What do I say? How do I convince myself That I will ever find my place? Time and time again I've fallen flat upon my fucking face And it seems that I can't find my fucking niche in anything I want to end my fucking life I say it time and time again But if I were to just die How would they speak about my name? How could I stay alive? Running around lost inside this place? Oh I am lost inside this place Oh I have lost the fucking race And when you look at me you see it Painted on my fucking face These are not words to get you moved I swear these words are not for you I wrote this down so I could fucking scream Alone inside my room Nobody did this shit to me No family or a friend I want to end my fucking life I say it time and time again (Time and time again...) I do not understand The ramifications Of your smile When you pierce into my soul With that gaze it drives me wild Maybe I'm lost Maybe I'm found Maybe I just enjoy adventure But at what cost? I'm feeling down So lemme write to you this letter Or it's a poem? Or it's a sound? Where is my home? Not in this town Not in this skin Soaking in sin And if I drown If I give in Will you be by my side? Or will that be it? Let me explain Let go of pain Where is my home? Am I not sane? Not in this house Not in this brain