Discernment

For all my life I have had the shakes Caught my heart shifting into foreign shapes Now this vessel's empty and i'll implode I guess Because I'll never learn to cope with lonlieness It's another reason, another season spent trying to turn back time I want to alienate i want to isolate while I try to grow back my spine Sit back and watch me as I start to unfold Cause I was born without self control Shut up! Don't you say my name I know what I became I know exactly where I lost it It's too late for me to say I'll change I don't want to enrage The devil in my closet Can you tell me where you've been Cause I can smell that smoke and sulfur creeping up behind my shoulder It's the beginning of the end When there's no such thing as absolution all that's left is retribution I felt him crawling around on my back We all knew eventually I'd slip through the crack Shut up! Don't you say my name I know what I became I know exactly where I lost it It's too late for me to say I'll change I don't want to enrage The devil in my closet I saw you rattle around Writhing without making sound I tried walking away down an unbeaten path Terrified of my past But we're all damned at the end of the day So bask in the wrath I thought that I was so funny Laughing death in the face When he opened his mouth I begged him don't say my name