Pineapple Boy

Find myself kissing the sidewalk Brown water and Xan'ny together Just trying to turn my mind off Fool, I was thinking today would be better Feeling I'm getting, personal Heaven Craving I've had since I was 11 Brain interference, that's draining my spirit I know it's bad for me, I don't wanna hear it All alone No way home Bloody nose From my snow All my friends Left me for dead I find myself here again, here again Why can't I get high Without wanting to die? Without wanting to die? Why can't I get high Without wanting to die? Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh Told myself I'd find a limit Honest-to-God, I'd be done with my sinning Two pills before I forget it Walls closing in and the ceiling is spinning Brain going manic, I start to panic This night's not going away that I planned it Oxygen's thinning, tires are skidding This is all my fault man who am I kidding Close my eyes Say goodbye Let me be Let me die Mom and dad Don't be sad Really it's not so bad not so bad Why can't I get high Without wanting to die? Without wanting to die? Why can't I get high Without wanting to die? Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh I've been lying And I'm dying And my mother She is crying No, I'm nothing No, I'm nothing No, I'm nothing No, I'm no I'm nothing at all