I was barely a teenager the first time I tried to kill myself

For a long time in my life, I felt like I'd been living two different lives

Because the truth is, in the life that only I see, who I am, who I really am, is someone who struggles intensely with depression

Because there's this pretty popular misconception that depression is just being sad when something in your life goes wrong

When you break up with your girlfriend, when you lose a loved one, when you don't get the job you wanted

But that's sadness, that's a natural thing, that's a natural human emotion

Real depression isn't being sad when something in you life goes wrong; real depression is being sad when everything in your life was going right

You know, I know what I'm missing out on

But instead, I choose to focus on the activities that I can do for things that I am passionate about, like scouting, or music, or comic books

Lesson number one

Never believe a prediction that doesn't empower you

(Omen) Don't tell me fucking shit

Stop puling on my strings

I tried telling you before

But you just won't seem to quit

I'm not throwing it

I'm making myself known and I'm ignoring inside tones

The race just started here we go

I'm not stopping 'till we dead

I'm fucking in