If I Fall

Clear your head, so self-centered Yet you're very well read Leave your bed All that oil gonna kill you dead Got my check Lost my center in a deep mud debt I know you're upset, I'll stop it, I'll quit My choices let down Some of my closest people But I'm gaining back ground I'm forcing myself to get better by fall Will you be there if I fall? I never seem to have it in line I don't think you've ever seen me fine Give me space, make me pace, let me whine Saving face at the cost of what I owe Getting big, watch the clock, where'd the time go? Cut it short when I'm scared of what I can't grow All these loose ends that I can't sew What do I care, what do you know? My choices let down Some of my closest people But I'm gaining back ground I'm forcing myself to get better by fall My choices let down Some of my closest people But I'm gaining back ground I'm forcing myself to get better by fall Will you be there if I fall? I'm sick of all the wack shit you're getting into Think I'll bounce, I gotta go I'm stuck inside a place where I can't love you You feel the vibe, I think you know There's not a single place that I can go to Without noise that I chose I'm stuck inside and my stomach's throwing up now From yellow pills and purple glow Hold me down Help me drown