Home Isn't Home Anymore

Decide if this is still her life, even if I'm gone I'm medicated and can't speak on us The season's fading out And I can't find my home Or find out what that means to me But I'd give it all to let it in and feel again (Search for the heart of this existence) It's a facade I'm living in a better place, When there's dreams that I still seek But would you still give it up and run away in the end Cause I am just so sick of faking every Single face while we pretend who we are This time all the flames are pouring out, But I'm stuck inside this hole (A ball and chain and I'm so invested) So despondent from this scene It's a fabricated mess, (Please don't take it out on me) And the messages all say to go home (Just leave it and go home) And throw this life away I like to pretend I'm a better man, but I'm not Do you wanna stay and see everything When I know that I'm still weak Or would you still give it up and run away in the end Cause I am just so sick of faking every single face while we pretend Cause I am a ghost, and all that I've become is what I've hated most I won't wait to run away From the moment I stepped in the room I could see that your eyes lost their color and their glow And now I wonder if there's something I missed Should I stray from the kiss that could save us now before I'm gone From the moment I stepped in the room I could see that your eyes lost their color and their glow I know now there's something I missed If I stray from the kiss, will I sever everything I love Would you still give it up and run away in the end Cause I am just so sick of faking every single face while we pretend Cause I am a ghost, and all that I've become is what I've hated most And I won't wait Would you still give it up and run away in the end Cause I am just so sick of faking every single face while we pretend Cause I am a ghost, and all that I've become is what I've hated most I won't wait to run away