If I'm Being Honest

I was told this is where I would start loving myself Flirting's delicious, proved to be beneficial for mental health All of my best bits pulled forward, collected, displayed Sadly I just think that I was disgusting, today You blew me up like a big balloon far too soon I'm left a stuttering teen How did I get here? It's all so quick, and I feel sick Red pushing down on the green Could you love this? Will this one be right? Well if I'm being honest, I'm hoping it might Could you love this? Did you plan to fall? Well if I'm being honest, oh I bet it's not that at all Hope has a cost, keeping all fingers crossed and held tight But I look idiotic, with my limbs all knotted, it don't feel right Truly you've shaken me, and I think you like how I plead But I have a hunch that that's all you wanted from me You blew me up like a big balloon far too soon Holding my breath makes me choke How did I get here? It's all so quick, and I feel sick I'm used to being a joke Could you love this? Will this one be right? Well if I'm being honest, I'm hoping it might Could you love this? Did you plan to fall? Well if I'm being honest, oh I bet it's not that at all All All All Could you love this? Will this one be right? Well if I'm being honest, I'm hoping that it might Could you love this? Did you plan to fall? Well if I'm being honest If I'm being honest Well if I'm being honest Oh, I bet it's not that at all