Letter to You

Aye, aye, listen close I'm about to revisit a real scene

My girl's a different person from times that you've intervened

And times that you've told her she wasn't shit

You played a little too hard with her, almost witnessed her quit

That was the darkest month I've ever lived, yeah

I tried to put it behind us, scars on her wrist to remind us

Of what was soon to be

If I could meet you live, I'd fight you one on one, just you and me

I'll take off all my jewelry, and show you how a **** get down

I'm from St Louis, what's up with the kid? Took her from peacefully

Getting rest too a hospital bed

My baby girl is dying and it's killing me

Overprotective, I get it, it's been instilled ever since

I watched her explain to me all the shit that her parents ain't know

Ever since seeing her cry just became the regular know

I tried my hardest to keep her straight and her head on right

But in the process of doing so, I be losing mine

Wanna see her shine, but when you come around

You soak up all the sunlight out her eyes

Take the smile off her face and take the color out her sky

Just to hear a child tell me, "Fuck a life, I'd rather die"

There's some shit I can't explain if I tried, and I try a lot

So if I start to cry, that means I'm crying for you

So don't you worry about a thing, I put my life before you

And don't go running from your past, I'm here, so I support you

When bullets fly and you don't bleed, just know I took it for you

My letter to you

And there's no hate in my eyes

Sometimes I try to let it go

And when you see me, tell me do you see pain in my eyes?

Or do you think I've let it go?

Should I let it go?

Now here, you got this seventeen-year-old boy, he started writing music

Well he's been writing since a youngin', but he never used it

He went from writing about his day, and how he does in schoolin'

To talking 'bout his little girl, 'cause she's been going through it

Talking bout her sadness and how her health been spiraling down

On top of that, he liked to write, his friends would call him a clown

On top of that, ain't feel accepted when he walked in his house

Add on to that, the world is burning him out

And now he's doubting if his family

Even care about the shit he likes to do

Bashed him when he said he rapped, and told him take a different route

These things can hurt when you just tryna be you

He's still dealing with the repercussions from seeing

The sadness from his girl, as he saw her mind go numb

Not many people that young should witness a time so dark

And neither parent was aware of what was up with their son

Not people that age should witness that kind of change

He was done, finally said, fuck it he gon' go on home and fix it himself

He needed answers, but his mind wasn't with it

His head spinning, like what the fuck is going on with my life

If I go this way then I'm wrong, if I go this way then I'm still wrong

I don't get it, God, tell me If this might be my last and final minutes

With these pills and the sun through the shade is the only witness

All he wants is some forgiveness and peace

Now he's hand shaking, his knees and

His knees and his hands shaking, ah, shit

Now his phone blowing up, three rings, no answer

A text, still no answer, is eating at him like cancer

His mother calls and he finally gets it

She like, baby, put em down, are you crazy? Just sit down, this is crazy

His heart's speeding, it's racing

This room small, but he's pacing a smile all on his face

And his father's on the way home, while his sister's shook to the bone

His hand still holding the phone

But before you heard his last breath, he was gone

Letter to you

He died that night, yeah

And the killer still loose, still lurking, a silent weapon

It's just something that the police can't catch

And that's depression

So I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I think I have to let it go

When you see me, tell me

Tell me do you see pain in my eyes?

Or do you think I've let it go?

I let it go