I fucking hate you

Remember the day that you

heard you were my dad

I bet you froze up

Throwing beers back

Then got up and left

The fact that you ran out on me

Has made me feel like I've been trying to be exactly what you were supposed to be teaching me

When I would ask

The family that you left

Grows stronger with every breath

And the day you'll need us most

it'll be too fucking late

My mom was my dad

And the strength that I have

Will be more than you'll ever understand

How can I have so much hate for someone I don't know

You don't deserve my attention

And now I'm stuck with the thought of what if

And it's leaving me with all these mixed emotions

I grew up twenty one years later

Never knowing the word dad

I don't know whether to feel mad

I don't know whether to be depressed

I thought you'd be there in the end

I thought you would have come to your senses

there’ll be nothing that you could teach me

so don’t bother even trying

I’m acknowledging your existence

in my lyrics for the moment

so i can get the point through your head

on how all of this could’ve been different

but i’ll leave you buried deep

like you did with me in ’93

I'll acknowledge your existence

For this moment

I'll leave you buried deep

In ninety three