Lyrics
I shouldn't have to try so hard just to see your smile
Water so deep I'm about to drown
When I wanna rise I just sink back, down
So hard to breathe right now
Right now
Ooh-ooh
I been dealing with depression
I'm guessing that's a big confession
'Cause **** don't show emotions
They hide and rather suppress 'em
I been lacking aggression and passion
Lacking a motive
I been down in the dumps I'm trumped
Not able to focus
Ok I'm thinking and analyzing
Stressing what's unnecessary
I should know better
'Cus pain is only temporary
I'm tryna be legendary
Touch paper like secretaries
Happiness the motive now everything is secondary
Sinking and I'm drowning when I overcome a hill
I walk into a mountain
My eyes drop water like a fountain
I took so many L's but who's counting
To calculate my L's
I might need an accountant
I'm overwhelmed with emotion sinking in the ocean
Can't float or swim
Would I shine again?
Can't rise or win
Would I shine again?
I feel like I will never ever shine again
I shouldn't have to try so hard just to see your smile
Water so deep I'm about to drown
When I wanna rise I just sink back down
So hard to breathe right now
Right now
Right now
Ooh right now
Now, now
Never sipping champagne 'cause it's hard to celebrate
I try to run from my demons but they chase
I'm hardly staying above water
As I'm gasping for air
In a puddle of tears and the feeling that nobody cares
Why is it so hard to crack a smile
Or feel some joy?
Put your ear to my heart
Tell me do you hear noise?
'Cause it's hard to breathe right now, are my lungs collapsing?
Feel like my soul is dying
Hurry go get a casket
This pain I deal with I try but I can't mask it
So let a mortician dress me who loves fly fashion
I can't fight the devil
He won't stop harassing
I can't fight the devil
He won't stop attacking
I'm not lying, I'm dying yea my time is passing
If you ever saw me smiling well I was acting
Yea I know I'm cracking and the devil's laughing
And all I see is water now like I'm fasting
I'm drowning
Written by: Alex Devon, Young L3x
