My Anxiety

I've been so close I can taste it I've been so far, I've been patient I take a bar and get wasted Part of my brain is erased when I go to Mars in a spaceship It's written all on my face and no one relates I don't know how long I can take it You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it That's an alright imitation Yeah I find it hard to describe my anxiety Feel like my heart and my mind got a rivalry Feel like my thoughts and emotions are fighting inside of me I gotta get this shit out of me I feel like Forrest, I'm running from everything I never saw that shit in its entirety If you need someone to get something 90% done and quit on it You should just hire me I'm feeling closer to death I feel a hole in my chest Feel like I'm stuck underwater Feel like I'm holding my breath Like it's the only one left Nobody know I'm depressed Even the people that know me the best I called my momma, she told me to rest I only get out of bed to get more cigarettes Yeah I've been so close I can taste it I've been so far, I've been patient I take a bar and get wasted Part of my brain is erased when I go to Mars in a spaceship It's written all on my face and no one relates I don't know how long I can take it You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it That's an alright imitation Yeah Is someone coming to save me? I'm faded, it don't even phase me I've had a hater that's showing me love And I've had a lover betray me I've had a lot of lessons, still got a lot of questions, still don't got any answers Eat your veggies, pray for a lotta blessings, die from like 20 cancers That's why I'm taking these drugs That's why I'm up til the morning Shot after shot, after shot, I can't stop it, I'm zoning Shrugging like Jordan did playing against Portland Still can't afford all the shit that I need I get too anxious when I hit the weed I take a pill and I'm feeling relieved I take another, I triple the speed I've been so close I can taste it I've been so far, I've been patient I take a bar and get wasted Part of my brain is erased when I go to Mars in a spaceship It's written all on my face and no one relates I don't know how long I can take it You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it That's an alright imitation Yeah That's an alright imitation, yeah That's an alright imitation, yeah That's an alright imit-, that's an alright imitation, yeah I'm looking happy online, but it's not what you think I'm losing touch if I'm touching a screen One minute, I think I love everybody And then I'm like fuck everything I'm looking happy online, but it's not what you think I'm losing touch if I'm touching a screen One minute, I think I love everybody And then I'm like fuck everything On a highway to hell, or a stairway to heaven And I'm stuck in the middle, I can't make a decision I don't think I'm suicidal, but if I was, I won't admit it Like I'd be okay with dying, if I'm not the one that did it I've been so close I can taste it I've been so far, I've been patient I take a bar and get wasted Part of my brain is erased when I go to Mars in a spaceship It's written all on my face and no one relates I don't know how long I can take it You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it That's an alright imitation Yeah That's an alright imitation, yeah That's an alright imitation, yeah That's an alright imit-, that's an alright imitation, that's an alright imitation, yeah