Cancer

Here we are again It's just me and the bathroom floor A gun in my hands And this thought that I can't take this anymore Rages on A voice inside I hear but cannot see Longs for an end to this life I've pushed so long and hard to beat This cancer that holds me down Intoxicating, desecrating the man I long to be Try and lift this anchor that holds me down It's constant baiting, never fading There's got to be a change This must be hell 'Cause every time I kill myself I wind up here Locked in a cell of all the choices I've made and the future that I fear Deep inside this voice says anything to get to me Tear me down I'm so tired of pushing through this agony This cancer that holds me down Intoxicating, desecrating the man I long to be Try and lift this anchor that holds me down It's constant baiting, never fading There's got to be a better way I have become lower than I ever thought I'd be Let me go I'll end it all in hopes to finally beat This cancer that holds me down Intoxicating, desecrating the man that I long to be Just beat this cancer (that holds us down) It's constant baiting, never fading I'll never break free from this cage