"Honest"

Maybe it's the way I was born and raised Cut off my emotion to survive my days Now I see people as a way to get by All I gotta do is find the truth in my lies Five months later, you're still around You should be embarrassed by the way I let you down Making excuses for you and not me Blame it on yourself 'cause you're too afraid to leave You keep saying that you're needing me See me for the man that you swear I'll be But you ain't gonna know me the way I do I'd never give it up on a life for two Gun to my head and you know you can't help me Another in my bed and you know you can't help me Took another hit and you know you can't help me Just go, yeah, just go I don't understand why you're so forgiving Caught me red-handed but you still won't listen You know what I told you since the day we started I'll always be "honest" The cops are at your door and they ask you where I am You paint a puzzled face and you lie for me again Risking your life like you do a hundred times Eventually you're gonna take the fall for my crimes Slam the door and look me in the eye Screaming this is gonna be the last time You're tired of me taking advantage So I cry and you pay for the damage Gun to my head and you know you can't help me Another in my bed and you know you can't help me Took another hit and you know you can't help me Just go, yeah, just go I don't understand why you're so forgiving Caught me red-handed but you still won't listen You know what I told you since the day we started I'll always be "honest" When it gets heavy, you break down and say "Why are you heartless, who made you this way?" I stare at you vacantly, right through your face I draw a blank I-I-I draw a blank Throwing my shit 'cause you don't understand The reasons behind why I am who I am You beg for the answer we know I don't have I draw a blank I-I-I draw a blank Gun to my head and you know you can't help me Another in my bed and you know you can't help me Took another hit and you know you can't help me So just go, yeah, just go I don't understand why you're so forgiving Caught me red-handed but you still won't listen You know what I told you since the day we started I'll always be "honest" I have betrayed you I have betrayed you Please don't forgive me, I'll do it again I have betrayed you I have betrayed you I'll always be "honest" I have betrayed you I have betrayed you Please don't forgive me, I'll do it again I have betrayed you I have betrayed you I'll always be "honest"