Medicate

I've been lying awake at night I've been hoping that I'm alright I've been winding myself too tight Wondering if I will sleep tonight Never thought things would get like this Always hoping that they'd work out Still ingesting the wrong amount Now, I seem to be filled with doubt I cannot stop this ride I'm growing cold inside I shouldn't let it slide Will sickness be mine? This should not be my weight to bear Go on acting like I don't care Stop this high, I wouldn't dare I have learned and deserve my share Things like this happen every day While I'm in there, I feel okay But you say I should get away Let me go just for one more day I cannot stop this ride I'm growing cold inside I shouldn't let it slide Will sickness be mine? I cannot stop this ride I'm growing cold inside I shouldn't let it slide Will sickness be mine? I've got to medicate myself I'm not concerned about health It covers up what I've been dealt It seems the only way I've got to medicate myself It's been the only thing that helped Must cover up what I have felt It seems the only way I cannot stop this ride I'm growing cold inside I shouldn't let it slide Will sickness be mine? I cannot stop this ride I'm growing cold inside I shouldn't let it slide Will sickness be mine? Sickness is mine Sickness is mine Sickness is mine