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'Cause I had the best of the worst sides And I had these lungs, oh And I had too many flash fires That I just let them burn 'Til my chest is on fire And my head just won't die I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't 'Cause I just feel so tired Like it's move or slowly die You say, you ain't you, when you're like this This ain't you and you know it But ain't that just the point? And you don't know how to let go Who said this must be all or nothing? But I'm, still caught below And I'll never let you know No, I can't tell you nothing 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes But still, I could always be Whatever you wanted, but not what you needed Especially when you been needing me 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes And I'll say what I don't mean Just 'cause I wanted, or maybe I need it Swear, lying's the only rush I need, yeah 'Cause all I needed was some words to say That all these feelings don't mean shit to me, yeah 'Cause it's all just chemicals anyway Anyway, yeah And I got way too many routes to take To make this all just go away and find another heart to break So heartless with these words I say Just saying what I'm supposed to say 'Cause I had nothing for you I can't love when I can't even love myself Things I would rather be, thoughts in the back of my head But I'm addicted to hurting And I got these lungs, yeah And I spent too many late nights Just thinkin' a hole in earth 'Til the sky is on fire And my head still won't die I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't 'Cause I just feel so tired Like I need something to come alive She said "You ain't you when you're like this" This ain't you, what you doing? And I said, that's the point And you don't know How to let go Who said this must be all or nothing? But I'm still caught below And I'll never let you know No, I can't tell you nothing 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes But still, I could always be Whatever you wanted, but not what you needed Especially when you've been needing me 'Cause I'm a fucking mess inside And I'll say what I don't mean Just 'cause I wanted or maybe I need it Swear, lying's the only rush I need Yeah, yeah,yeah Yeah, oh yeah, yeah, oh yeah Ooh, oh-ooh, oh, yeah Ooh-oh, oh, yeah I need it, yeah, I need it, I need it, yeah, I need it