Bastards

I hope this finds you well A father lost and mother dear The family that's kept me here Hard lesson learned, and I've learned it well How to lose everything How to push you away How to lie when I say "I never raised a hand to the ones I love." Now look at how You beg and pray For your god and his grace To keep you safe To save you from me My broken spirit and back My calloused, shaking hands The ache I carry in me My grief and skeletons The weight you carried inside A weight that held my bloodline Black out the sunlight I count these burdens as mine And still all you see is that bastard in me Believing in hell A father lost and mother dear The family that I squandered here Hard lesson learned, and I forgot it all How to lose everything How to push you away How to lie when I say "I never raised a hand to the ones I love." But I remember how You begged and prayed For your god and his grace To keep you safe To save you from me My broken spirit and back My calloused, shaking hands The ache I carry in me My grief and skeletons The weight you carried inside A weight that held my bloodline Black out the sunlight I count these burdens as mine And still all I see is that bastard in me